Feeling a bit depressed and overwhelmed with everything going on with me medically. . I was in denial with what was going on with me the past few months but im accepting it and coming to terms with it. I just wish i werent so emotional about it… knowing that i dont have him to talk to about how scared i am about the whole situation and not having my best friend really hurts. Its been almost 5 months and im still not over him half as much as i feel i should be.. knowing that hes pushed me away and over me hurts and makes everything so hard.
So thankful for the beautiful memories we shared..little moments like this where i feel so lucky to of had him in my life and so thankful for all he did for us.
While at the hospital today one of the male nurses on the floor was wearing the axe my ex used to wear and i couldnt help but run to the bathroom to cry… ugh. Why am i so emotional.
Proud to say i am not materialistic, that i am independant and some what low matienance.
Damien Rice - My Favourite Faded Fantasy (Album Version)
You could be my favourite taste
To touch my tongue
I know someone who could serve me love
But it wouldn’t fill me up
You could have my favourite face
And favourite name
I know someone who could play the part
But it wouldn’t be the same
No it wouldn’t be the same as with you…
You could be my favourite place
I’ve ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I’ve hung my happiness upon what it all could be
How I feel everyday and every night.
MAGIC! - Stupid Me
But if you love me the way i love you..
and if you don’t want me the way i want you…
and if you don’t need me the way i need you..
i’ve just got one thing to say to you…
Maybe one day
So true. I will never love someone the way I love you